I have made so many mistakes lately. My mind has been so clouded that I impulsively acted on feelings – anxious feelings. I overthink. “Stop overthinking”, they say. Easier said than done. I would love to, but I just can’t sometimes.

My mind and thoughts can be so destructive. If I’m being hard on others, it’s because I’m battling something huge inside my mind. If I become quiet, I’m processing. If I’m processing, I overthink. If I’m overthinking, game over. Vicious cycle.

I know I need to sit and process these emotions to get them out of my system, but they can be so painful sometimes. No one else really seems to understand it or want to talk me through it – or maybe I just don’t want to be the source of any negative vibes.

So I hide. I don’t really want to go out. I do it because I feel bad saying “I can’t” all the time. But then I feel bad going and somehow getting lost in my thoughts – and I’m just quiet.

This is not easy, but I’m trying.